“Wrath”
Forgiving isn’t my job
I don’t care about peace
I want justice
I want pain felt by those who cause it
I want their spines crushed
Their bones to turn to dust
beneath my heel
Regret won’t be just a word
It will be an experience
And forgiveness will hang by its neck in the yard
alongside their bodies
swaying in the wind
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“Greed”
I want
I want to feel electric
60% of me shocking the world
Scorching the ground where I walk
I want passion
Furious, hungry, all-consuming
passion to swallow me whole
In an insipid world
overwhelmed by the mundane
I want
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“Envy”
I have everything
some people dream of
But there’s more in the world
Other people have more
love, money, fame,
happiness
And I want it for myself so badly
my desire smolders in my heart
I am choking on desire
strangling on my own jealousy
burning inside my skin
dying to crawl out of it
and into someone else’s life
I want what they have
what I don’t
what I can’t
I have everything
and it is not enough
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“Sloth”
You think I don’t want to do it
I do
But I can’t
My limbs are stone
My brain is a statue frozen
infecting my lungs
my heart
my spine
I want to move
but I can’t
I can barely breathe
I know you don’t see it
But I can’t do anything
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“Gluttony”
On the nights when the pain is drowning me
(every night)
I’d rather drown in a bottle
I love the way it leaves me numb
I love the way the lights spin the way my mind does
(out of control)
I love the way I forget my own name
and yours
The warmth like poison in my blood
better than the razor blades that used to spill it
I get another drink to get happier
I get another drink and it’s never enough
and one too many
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“Pride”
I can do this on my own
You can’t force me to admit I can’t
You would have to drag the words from my decaying lungs
my severed tongue
before I’d ever say them willingly
I would rather dig my own shallow grave
and bury myself alive
than admit I need you
I don’t
I can do this on my own
Even when I can’t
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“Lust” Every smile was an invitation every laugh a plea “Take me home I can’t be alone tonight” I was water and his body against mine an oil slick But I didn’t care At least he was next to me And my halved heart was whole for a night I wonder what his name was *